// people//
are human.
they are full of flaws and imperfections.
those flaws are what makes humans beautiful
but in covering them up, that is what makes people unreal
it’s disgusting.
maybe that’s why i have the tendency to withdraw, because i just can’t stand how systematic people’s behavior has become.
the same smiles, laughs, mannerisms.
it’s not that i lost hope in finding someone who i can be completely open to and find absolutely beautiful.
it’s that i found out how beautiful and precious i thought you were. and how desperately i tried to hold on to you and give you and do everything i could to keep you with me.
it didn’t even cross my mind that maybe you need space
that if i let you go for a little bit
you would wander away
i am desperately holding on to something that can’t be mine
you are your own person
a person i became obsessed with trying to keep with me forever.
